|How I feel after overcoming challenges|
How are you? Life is going well, thank you for asking. The past two weeks, I squished through the wringer of emotionally pressing and ego-reducing circumstances. My Pablo-centric universe imploded a
bit----all for the better.
Happily, I emerged cleaner, improved. Spiritually and mentally, I've grown. Right sized, I was. The vexing ordeals that tested my sanity, serenity, and sense of self scathed my pride, but that's a good thing.
Within my psyched dwells a reactive little boy. He's the remnant of past hurts and abuse. He surfaces when I don't live by principles. He taunted me. This puny guy cajoled me to be petulant, as I faced unsatisfactory circumstances and confusion.
Resisting the siren call of immaturity was my response. But, my patience was strained. The tranquility that is mine was tossed by intense emotional sea storms created when I allowed my private world to expand.
Yielding to my immature self would have prevented rewarding opportunities that eventuated. Meager would have been the results of unbridled discipline----allowing the screaming voices of my feelings to overrule common sense and patience.
Blessings appeared only after reining in reactive emotions----applying discipline instead. But, it was tough, nonetheless, I won't kid you. Pride and past hurts----the little boy's voice----tried to rule my heart.
This reactive child's feelings were overcome by the power of discretion. In temperance I trusted. Am I glad----I was rewarded with gifts that were worth the roiling emotions and distracted thoughts endured the past twenty-one days.
Reflecting back on the past three weeks, I can smile at almost jeopardizing good fortune. I was thisclose to playing "chicken" with it. During difficult times, being immature can be my impulse.
Pouting, though deleterious, is my default mode: if I'm not living from a recovery perspective. Sometimes, though, exercising the spiritual discipline of patience is as appealing as cleaning out a cat litter box that has not been attended to for several days. This is where placing healthy principles above my personality is the best and healthiest alternative.
My Gratitudes for Today:"Guard your heart with all diligence, for from it flow the issues of life." Proverbs 4:23
1. I'm not letting my immature nature rule me or make my decisions.
2. I've had plenty of opportunities to practice patience and grace, especially towards others who have disappointed me.
3. I'm exercising discipline.
energy (or thoughts, behavior)
4. I'm thankful for the gifts that surface when I stay present, using healthy principles and respond----not react----to the vicissitudes of life.
How About You?
In what areas are you exercising discipline?