Today was intense. Emotionally draining days have been piling up. Rest is earnestly sought. This is the time when Quiet Time----time alone with God----is a major relief.
Prayer, meditation, moments of deliberate solitude, exercising the spiritual disciplines of silence, giving, praise and worship help me maintain sanity. There is also relief when
riding my steel steed.
Throughout this day, I basked in yesterday's victory. As a result of support from wise, caring friends and applying healthy principles, an emotional abuser did not rob me of my joy. Am I glad.
My Gratitudes for Thursday:
1. I'm thankful I know how to stay present, not letting fear intrude upon my serenity.
I stood firm in truths that reminded me of the value I have and that I am loved not only by God, but by many dear friends who know me well. One of these truths is.....
Another encouraging truth is:"I block my well being every time I base my self-worth on what I do or what other people think of me." Courage to Change, p. 118
Wow. And, this:I do not have to justify myself to anyone. Courage, p. 155
2. I love the peace available when I stand for myself while not standing against my fellows, when I feel the enormity of my emotions without being overwhelmed by them."As I become more comfortable with my likes, dislikes, dreams wishes and desires, I'm increasingly able to risk the disapproval of others." Courage to Change, p. 217 (Paraphrased)
3. I like the peace I have when I remember that when I'm mistreated that it simply means the other person is suffering from a disease. It may be they were abused----as was the case of the man who said negative things in a voice mail he left me.
4. I'm glad that I experientially know the presence of a gentle God who envelopes me with his love, at all times, especially difficult times. I'm mindful of the following
5. I had an intense but amazingly good conversation with someone who wanted to know how I arrived at the faith have. I was happy unveiling principles that reveal to me my worth----it's God dwelling within me, along with his power. (II Cor. 4:7)"If God isn't near, guess who moved?"
Slaying the Dragon of Abuse and Fear
I'm glad that when emotionally assaulted this past week I dwelled in real time, strengthened by the armor of supportive truths. I was girded for spiritual battle with the armor of love----the affection God has for me and that of my supportive network. They were incarnational, real-time, practical ambassadors of His great love for me.
I did not allow dragons----birthed from past unpleasant, abusive moments----to torment me. Yes, they reared their heads. This week I faced these once terrifying beasts. I also laughed in their faces and slew them.
I used strong, effective, affirming truths that provided me serenity, even when in the eye of an emotional storm created by a deeply disturbed person who sought my harm.
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