Thursday, February 26

State of the Innkeeper Report

     Full day.  Beat.  Physically and emotionally. Two thousand, eight hundred and twenty of you have passed through the doors of  this inn today.

     That's not why I am exhausted.  I am carrying in my body the loss of
Precious.  It happened in one night, this past Monday. Further depleting me was seeing a new client, having a teleclass that included people from around the world and being with my most difficult client, along with two others, for a total of four.

     Thank you, for your support, regarding the death of a beloved pet. It means much, more than you can imagine.  Many have contacted me personally and Syd has via comments.  It's good not being along when sucker punched by such an abrupt change.   I am encouraged and fortified by your support.  I am happy, knowing so many care.

     The steamroller of circumstances has me spent, wiped out---all my energy is gone.  I am learning to get in touch with my feelings, more than I already do.  So bear with me as I use you as my therapist.  Here is my emotional state for tonight:

1.  I am in a fog.  My mind can barely function.  I get to invest in me by sleeping in Friday.  Ya ay!
2.  I am sad, angry, enraged, resentful.  When someone took Precious to the vet hospital, he didn't tell me they were putting her down. (That's my assumption what they did.)   I would wanted to be with her, comforting her, be there, when she departed this world.  I angry I was cheated of having closure in my relationship with her.

      I was not given that option. making me unhappy and frustrated. I was left hanging for three days by this same person.  The lack of communication upset me.
3.  I am being gentle towards myself, taking care of me. I am eating nutritiously,  getting extra sleep, talking with my community of friends---emptying out the whirlwind of emotions that are swirling within me.

     That's it for tonight.  I am tired, heading for bed. Please let me hear from you. Now, more than normal, I'd value the community we share here.

Wednesday, February 25

No Gratitudes Tonight: A Love of My Life Died

The cutest and most adorable female I have ever known. 
     Three times I've cried today.  Precious died.  The sweetest cat I ever made the acquaintance, she was.  As she lay dying Monday night, she was tender,

Tuesday, February 24

A Grateful Innkeeper

Gratitudes:
1.  My time getting training in Sebastopol tonight wasn't too bad.  Everyone else knows each other, have gone through these sessions, plenty of times.  Even though a newbie, I accounted well for myself.
2.  I made the trip, to and fro, safely.  I listened to a

Monday, February 23

It's That Time Again 2/23/15

      At the beginning of the week, we here at the inn look backwards, gleaning the good and bad that took place the previous seven days.  Here's my perspective.

Highs:
1.  A productive week, making me feel

Saturday, February 21

A Fabulous Day 2/21/15

       Delightful weather, delightful conversation, delightful cycling.  Can't beat that.  Not true. All of these were trumped by spending all of these aspects of today with a son, creating memories I won't forget.

       I attended a

Thursday, February 19

The Benefits of Loss................. 2/19/15

More about this, later in this post. 
   Today is a red letter day.  The most visitors, ever.  Over two thousand.  Two thousand, four hundred and thirty-two (2,432). Yesterday, was the previous highest total  I am getting tired putting little chocolates on everyone's pillow.

Gratitudes for Today: 
1.  A client brought her mother with her, to today's session.  The focus was entirely upon the new guest.  I now have a new client.  The mom was visiting from Reno.  We'll use Skype.
2. An interesting point was brought up today, while with a client.  He believed nothing is impossible with

Tuesday, February 17

Being Gentle But Effective When Expressing Ourselves, Revisited, Along with Today's Gratitudes....... ...................2/17/15

When the last drop of rain has fallen, and the final note has drifted away,
When the Earth ceases to turn and the last fire is burned, when the
 wind stops its ceaseless blowing and the last wave has come into shore,
When the sun’s called it a day and the stars have all floated away,
When time is no longer ticking and the hour glass runs out of sand;
His love remains, like an endless flame burning, God's love remains!
(Avalon song ‘Love Remains’)
     Innkeeper's Note:  I see that a few have rummaged through the attic of this inn and have laid hold on this the following post, a favorite of mine.  It is running up the sidebar for the most popular posts for this week.  Thank you for dropping by and checking out the inn's library. 
        I am re-posting it for

Saturday, February 14

Taking Care of Needs, Dealing With Disappointment 2/14/15

      This is the time when reviewing the high and low points for the last seven days happens.  It's a barometer, allowing me to know if I am on track with my vision for my life.

High Points
1.  I am resting more, achieving balance during my week. My days are intense by nature.  I need down time to decompress.  When I slow down, I am more effective, my mind is clearer. 
2.  Using priorities, setting a scheduled time for

Thursday, February 12

No Interest in Being the Head Dung Beetle .......... 2/12/15

Two dung beetles doing their thing. I'm
 the one on the right, behind the other. 
     When I worked in a psychiatric hospital, I worked the day shift on Saturdays.  Often, at the end of the day, the Assistant Director of Nursing asked if I would work a double shift, for her department.  It was Saturday, as I said.  Invariably, an employee would call in sick.  You could count on it.  For the psychiatric rehab department, I

Tuesday, February 10

The 1960's in California, Again, Without Boundaries, Like It Was, Back Then .................. 2/10/15

Back Jack
     Back from my bi-weekly trip to Sebastopol.  It's weird, what I sit in, on, while plopped upon a Back Jack.  If I had a tad more of a sense of humor, I would parody what happens.  Bizarre.  I restrain from

Quotes from the Posts

"I'm mindful that our thoughts affect the words we use, our words influence our actions, our actions shape our character and our character determines our destiny."

From "My Character Determines My Destiny." To read it, please click here.

"Progress not perfection, is better than no progress at all, especially when we're trying to rid ourselves from unwelcome dragons that dwell within the closets of our soul."

From, "Still Learning" which, within four days, became the most popular post
written. To read it, please click here.

"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, but it does empty today of its strength"
From the post: "Life Is Not a Correspondence Program." Click here to read it.

"Even though we cannot control our circumstances, we can control how we choose to respond to them."

From, "Handling Stress and Dealing With an Emotional Bully."Click here to read this post.

"Nope, being busy isn't exciting. Boring is good. Because boring is not boring; boring is being healthy, living a balanced life that has serenity"

From: "Do You Know What It Means If You Are Too Busy?" For more, please click here.

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