not expressed. No inspiration.
Childhood Emotional Coercion
Trained for Codependency---Ignoring Our Feelings and Needs
Despite the intensity of my emotions, I was to ignore a vital part of who I was. If I didn't, I was ridiculed or physically punished. Asserting my boundaries was unacceptable, because I was a child. Please everyone, but not myself, was the order of the day.
Some day it made.
This was how I was trained by school, church and family. Ignoring my needs, disregarding my opinions, not expressing my voice made me a good boy. Compliance was best.
Gratitudes for Friday
1. I napped tonight. It balanced an intense week, including an in-depth conversation on Wednesday. My head is no longer hazy.
2. I may be
sick. We'll see. If I am, it will slow me down, a good thing, forcing rest upon me.
3. I have been charting the past few days---working on client files. I like the clarity it provides as I review my workload.
4. I am glad I am not involved with Facebook. I visit my page three times a year. I don't even know why I do. I prefer the connecting and intimacy that face-to-face relating provides.
5. I am teaching a class in January. I thrive when I do. It spurs my creativity and allows self-expression---I feel more alive.
6. I am taking steps that furthers my professional growth. It will take me out of town early next week. I enjoy getting better at what I do. I love discovering new material that adds wholeness to my life, keeping me fresh.
What are your gratitudes for today?