Wednesday, June 13

Not Allowing Others To Define Who We Are ......6/13/12 400th post

Gratitude is the fairest blossom
 which springs from the soul.
Henry Ward Beecher

       Here I am, again. And, am I glad! This entry is a milestone. I like milestones. I'm a milestone type of guy. You'll find why, in my
gratitudes.
My Gratitudes for Tonight: 
1.  The time I had with a client went well.  Helping others making the most out of their lives is a joy.  I like being effective and supporting others at the same time.  Doesn't that sound like a good job?  I thankful for providing balance, comfort and dignity for those who are vulnerable.
2.  Tonight, I met with someone I mentor.
       We supped and had a good discussion about the signals of pain in his life. We also discussed the need for great effort, if we want to overcome negative generational legacies.
        I look forward to our times together. I value the authenticity, honesty, closeness and friendship we're developing.
3.  This is my four hundredth post!!!  Wow!  I celebrate the discipline and determination I've applied to this inn. I really like the self-expression that this inn allows me.
4. I researched today, I love the discovery, growth and learning it provides.
5. My son is graduating from college this Saturday. I'm proud of his diligent and conscientious efforts.
6. I'm grateful that I expressed my voice this week, even though it was uncomfortable when I did. I placed principles above my personality.
7. I rode my bike. I look forward to putting in miles tomorrow----probably 18. I like the adventure, fun and mental and physical comfort cycling provides me.
8. I met with friends after dinner and my time with my mentee.
Someone Attempted Intimidation:
 It Didn't Work With This Innkeeper
        Someone tried telling me what I knew. "You know the answer!!" the other person replied, when I asked him a question. It was a subject of which he is very familiar and, I am not.

        "No, I don't," I replied. I have no problem admitting ignorance. There are lots of things I don't know.  I calmly asked him not to tell me what I knew.  Others do not define who I am, my capabilities or lack of them.  No one know what goes on inside my mind. With a soft voice and courtesy, I let him know that.

         He growled, "I don't want to argue with you."

        "You are the one arguing with me," I replied. "I simply asked a question."

         He got up and stormed away.  I'm thankful I don't react when others try triggering a response in me.  I value my autonomy, I don't allow others to tell me what I know. Do you know what we call it, when we allow others to define us or determine our moods?

         Codependency. For more on this subject, please click here.  It probably frustrated him, that I'm not a codependent, and that I don't yield to the blustering of others.

         As I become more comfortable with my likes, needs, wants, dreams and desires, I more willingly face the disapproval of others.
"I am increasingly able to honor others when they choose to be themselves, whether or not I like what I see. [Because the world does not determine its values by ours---it's a bit bigger than us.] ......
"I am learning to find my place in this world---a place where I can live with dignity   and respect."
       'I exist as I am, that is enough. If no other in the
         world be aware, I sit content. And if each and all
         be aware, I sit content.'   Walt Whitman  
 
                                 Courage to Change, p.217

  9. I'm grateful for confidence that allows me to stand up to emotional bullies.
10. I shared with someone today parts about me that I usually keep to myself.  I let him know why studies have been pretty easy for me. I also mentioned why my mind races as it does.
How About You? 
What has happened to you this week that causes your soul to smile? What are your gratitudes for today?  You just heard some of mine.
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8 comments:

Optimistic Existentialist said...

One thing in particular that happened this week that caused my soul to smile was a new friend that I have recently made. We were in grad school together and have recently re-connected and had some wonderful correpondence about life and where we want it to take us. I am grateful to have been re-connected with my friend.

Vanessa Higgins said...

Happy 100th post!!

Carl H said...

Happy 400th Pablo! In biblical numerology, the number 40, as a root of 400, is quite significant! My soul smiles at an unexpected moment of creative writing this evening, in the garden, sipping coffee at dusk. I'm writing about "A State of (Gratitude) Grace." I'll let you know where it goes...

I'm a day late and a złoty short with my gratitude's, but here they are;
1. I'm grateful for the listening time ("the healing is in the hearing") I could share with my #3 son in the car on the way to SFO last night. He was opening up with articulate, thoughtful views on the recent demise of his marriage, his acting out,and need for closure; a welcome bonding and healing time together. As I learn to let go with loving detachment, he draws closer.
2. Grateful my God allowed my van to act up just at the perfect "rescue" off-ramp to a back-up vehicle. This afforded a smooth transition to my dinner and study engagement.
3. Again, grateful my writing "voice" is beginning to emerge and hopeful I will soon be able to contribute to my mentor's literary offerings.

Anonymous said...

Congrats on a significant milestones, Innkeeper! 400th post - that is quite an accomplishment!

Again I'm burning the midnight oil - a definite sign that my to do lists continue to hold sway over my schedule. I sometimes feel like an old engine that sputters and stalls when the gas pedal is pushed. Affirmations is a great way to tune up. I am grateful for affirmations - mini mantras that help create the world I desire.

I am a child of God - I lovingly and effectively complete all my tasks and projects in plenty of time.

This is progress one hour at a time...

I am grateful to my higher power for success interviews - I had one today that was to be a short phone call. It lasted 45 minutes and when I asked the interviewer if there were any objections that I might address she replied there weren't any. Hopefully, the face-to-face interview next Friday will include me. I am grateful for whatever the outcome as I trust that my higher power is guiding me to where I can best serve...

I am grateful for schedules. After years of resisting scheduling my time (think in ink) and relying on my memory to keep track of what needs to be done and that priority (an equation for failure!), I have embarked on a commitment to provide an activity schedule every day. I'm on day three - having tomorrow's schedule completed before the end of my day. Ah - one day at a time. Since I get distracted easily, this is an important discipline to resurrect. I am thankful that I had this habit earlier in my life - it is definitely time to build that inner will/muscle now.

Dear Innkeeper - thank you for your discipline and welcome to come to the Inn to express gratitudes and share insights. Isn't it curious - the more often I write these thoughts, the less hurtful others' criticism of me becomes. For this outlet and solace - THANK YOU! Lowry

Pablo said...

Keith,

How good is that! It must be nice connecting with someone who knew you during that season in your life. You have a shared history.

Bonding with others you've known must make you happy. How did you reconnect?

Thanks for dropping by, reading and posting!

Pablo said...

Vanessa,

Thank you! I've averaged 27 posts for 15 months. Whew! But it has been worth it. As a result, I met you. :)

I wish you a great weekend!

Pablo said...

Carl,

Always a pleasure seeing you here. All of your comments you've posted this week, I've replied. And that of everyone else.

Man, Carl, you are becoming the poster boy for the value of Letting Go and Letting God, in addition to the benefits of setting boundaries in a loving way.

I'm excited for you. You are stretching yourself in many fantastic ways! Wishing you a great weekend. Remember, you are not alone.

The Innkeeper

Pablo said...

Lowry,

Good to see you, my friend!

What an amazing phrase: "affirmations: mini mantras that help create the world I desire." Thank you for visiting the inn. I love what you wrote here. You shared affirmations.

You have my prayers as you await the outcome of your job interview. You must be both excited and apprehensive.

I'm happy hearing this place encourages you. Yes, please continue writing your thoughts here. Not only do you benefit, but the rest of us who frequent this inn do, too.

I'm glad this inn meets your need for mental clarity, as you list your gratitudes, but it also provides support. That is the vision we have for this place.

An innkeeper who enjoys cheering you on,

Pablo

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