Thursday, April 3

The Incubating Innkeeper.......... 4/3/14

   Late to bed and early to rise makes me a tired innkeeper at this hour.  But I'm still happy.  I went the day without my phone.  And it was fine.  Life was good, better than normal.

    I have been incubating.  My soul is processing what has transpired the past few weeks.  Plenty.  Overall, I see I'm still growing, characterologically.

    At times it is disorienting,
certainly.  I am firing dendrites and carving out new neuronal pathways---my mind is processing differently.  Way different from the Pablo I know. But, life is better.

     I am becoming the person I dreamt I could be. The difference?
1.  Not allowing the 7-9 year old Pablo drive the bus of my        emotions.  This means I'm not reacting. I am responding.
2.  The company I keep is better.  I am done with those who do not accept me as I am.  Those who want me to be more than I am, what do I do with them?

     I bless them and send them on their way.  They are not God's gift for me.  My network of Safe People are for me. They don't take on the Critical Parent role and correct me, when I fall. Instead, they are just with me, available, offering support when I ask.

My Gratitudes:

1.  I am thankful for expressing my voice, when confused, recently.
2.  Gathering with friends Wednesday night was taking care of me.  Always healthful, being with others where genuine communication takes place.
3.  I'm thankful for the source of my hope, when it comes to the future.  My confidence is not in my abilities.  Heavens no.  It is in the God of my understanding.

How About You? 
What are your three gratitudes for today?

1 comment:

Carl H said...

Dear Innkeeper,

On this Thursday night, I am grateful...

1. To learn that I played an unexpected, minor role in a friend and mentor's quest for true and lasting love. This was at once, surprising, touching and humbling. I was reminded to never underestimate the potential value of an inspired thought or word, in or for another's life.

2. For our weekly, evening circle of friends, courageously sharing our stories; challenges, joys, hopes and in all of these, our strength.

3. For escaping harm when an errant car pulled in front of me at speed. Swerving to avoid a major crash was traumatic, but, with the help of that mysterious adrenaline rush, successful. Whew!

4. For pushing myself beyond exhaustion tonight to attend what was a rich gathering with my spiritual community in song, prayer, and fellowship,

5. For a slower, quieter, less stressful workday tomorrow, and for the chance to go to the gym; swim and decompress.

6. My wife and I will be able to escape to Aetna Springs and Pope Valley this weekend to unwind from city life with our dear friends.

Quotes from the Posts

"I'm mindful that our thoughts affect the words we use, our words influence our actions, our actions shape our character and our character determines our destiny."

From "My Character Determines My Destiny." To read it, please click here.

"Progress not perfection, is better than no progress at all, especially when we're trying to rid ourselves from unwelcome dragons that dwell within the closets of our soul."

From, "Still Learning" which, within four days, became the most popular post
written. To read it, please click here.

"Worry does not empty tomorrow of its trouble, but it does empty today of its strength"
From the post: "Life Is Not a Correspondence Program." Click here to read it.

"Even though we cannot control our circumstances, we can control how we choose to respond to them."

From, "Handling Stress and Dealing With an Emotional Bully."Click here to read this post.

"Nope, being busy isn't exciting. Boring is good. Because boring is not boring; boring is being healthy, living a balanced life that has serenity"

From: "Do You Know What It Means If You Are Too Busy?" For more, please click here.