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The sun setting on San Francisco
Peninsula, viewed from Alameda Island |
My body has been thrown out of wack----I'm sleeping irregular-ly. The good news: I rode sixteen miles today. It should help me bed down sooner and sleep soundly. We'll see.
On the other hand, I
sleep like a baby: I wake up every three hours and cry. (Just joking, folks, for those who always take me seriously.)
With another, I circumnavigated part of Alameda Island on two wheels in the afternoon. We traveled 10.5 miles. The glorious weather made for a lovely time of cycling. Our conversation was better: intense, honest, supportive, and authentic.
The guy that rode with me today provided perspective re-garding a vexing issue that, since early March, has stuck with me. This subject involves an annoying piece of gum attached to the bottom of the shoe of my consciousness. Its sticky sound constantly reminds me of its presence as I walk on the linoleum of life.
My cycling companion and I had
dinner
at
Jim's Cafe
in Alame-da. We covered the bugaboo of resentment; our time was pro-ductive and insightful. We looked at satisfying remedies that allow us to have peace of mind.
I'm progressing with my attitude towards the problem that has troubled me since last
month. It's
not
something
I
want
to do, but I will tackle it eventually. I will call the person who created it.
I'm growing in my will-ingness to talk with this individual who jolted me last month by re-opening an old emotional scar that I hadn't thought about in a long while. It looks like it's time to use the butter knife of forgiveness to scrape off negative feelings that gummed up the sole of my thinking.
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After dinner,
I
scooted
over
to Grand Ave., connecting with friends on
the
island. Someone shared her story of
growing
up
with
an
alcohol-ic, heroin-addicted mother,
who
gave
birth to her when six-teen. The speaker was transparent and honest and vulnerable and positive----her talk was a heartfelt message of encouragement.
Her progress, using the principles and the fellowship of Al-Anon Family Groups, helps her have peace and clarity during stressful moments----something she didn't know as a child. She mentioned perspectives that allow her to overcome dark clouds that previously obscured her happiness.
Her comments were a great reminder. She mentioned how she realizes she can't control her husband. But she's learned she
can control how she chooses to respond to him.
Her newfound recovery-based sanity provides her with clarity and ease; she has discov-ered a source of tranquility in areas that once irritated her. I'm happy for her and glad I heard her herald truths I need to heed----at all times.
My Gratitude for Today:
1. I rested. Even though it was a restless rest, I semi-rested. That's the progress, not perfection, of a vital area affecting my health.
Halting relieves my muddled mind. When I don't get enough sleep, I can't think straight. Isn't that also true for you?
2. I spent time reading today, one of my favorite things. I love discovering new truths and the growing awareness it provides.