The Innkeeper Is Evolving, His Wings Are Unfurling ...... 6/30/14

       My heart is evolving.  No, that isn't strange. In fact, it is good, but, different.  A part of my inner self is transforming. In touch with my feelings, I am.  I live being present. However, my emotions are balanced with

The Week In Review.............. 6/28/14

Image: "Ireland: Kerry Island" by Tim Blessed.
Copyrighted Photograph. Used by Permision

         Exhausted, I have been. I slept over ten (!!!) hours last night.  Even so,  today I was tired.  Tomorrow I look forward to cycling, perhaps using my new bike rack to go somewhere scenic. And yes, without having an accident.  Like last time, on Fathers Day.

         It is that time. I will review the best and not so best parts of the week that concludes today.  I would love hearing your highs and lows, too.  Here are mine.

Best: 
1.  I have not lived alone since a teen.  Now I am.  I am  good at keeping my own company.   However, I am never lonely.  That happens when we are not at

Being Authentic, the Distasteful Qualities of Being Controlling........ 6/25/14

      More than two months ago, I wrote about authenticity, versus being controlling.  I'll say more, tonight.  Control patterns arise whenever we are fearful about being:

The Beauty of Authenticity, the Healing Power of Acceptance........ 6/25/14

         Enjoyed being present---my true, un-varnished self---Tuesday, while sharing the morning with someone dear.  We swam in the depths of authenticity and intimacy.  Night embraced the day.  Stars shone within the darkness of our souls.  The birdsong of joy serenaded the early hours of this day.

         We did not hide who we were, how we

Review of the Past Week...... 6/22/14

   As you know, on the weekends, I ask if we can do an inventory of the week just completed. I would enjoy hearing your high and low points.  Here are mine:
High Points:
1.  I enjoy levels of intimacy never known before.  Being present and relating with a conscious and aware person is great. There is no attempt at controlling the relationship, by either one of us. We are

Enjoying Life In Spite of Drama....... 6/19/14

    My humanity has been leaking through my resil-iency, a big part of who I am. Then again, I went through an emotional tornado Wednesday night. This drama extrav-aganza wiped me out

Drama, Part II ......... 6/18/14

       Good evening.  Drama happened tonight. And how.  It was fascinating.  I can stare at it forever.  :-> There was no need to watch TV this evening.   I did something about today's dustup.

       It is one thing talking a good game.  It is another, living our principles.

       The same person who last week spoke at length----twenty minutes----tried doing the same this. Didn't let it happen.  Am I glad.  Emotional fireworks ensued, however.  That's okay, it allowed

I Am Not Who I Was Nineteen Months Ago .................... 6/17/14

    My heart has raced the past few weeks. My face aches from smiling.  I am not my usual self.  Thoroughly delighted I am.

     A journey taken the past nineteen months wound its way through sensational conversations, poetry, more than two hundred letters, and much soul searching. The gifts found along the way have both humbled and inspired me.  I am not the same fellow I was before

Am I Crazy? .............. 6/15/14

      Hello.  I am hurting, within and without.  And yet, I am happy. Am I crazy? You be the judge.

       My right arm is bandaged, my right shin stings like heck and sticks to my pants, my left leg burns. I am unable to kneel and I hobble when I walk. But the day was great.

       Yesterday was more of the same, from a different perspective.  My inner self was scraped.  My optimism and joy hit the asphalt of confusion, leaving me

Not Weighed Down By Life's Pressures......... 6/12/14

Adopting a right attitude can convert a negative stress into a positive one.   Hans Selye, stress theory pioneer

     I'm slipping in my gratitudes a minute into the next day.  I'm worn out. My baseball team lost tonight and I'm rising early tomorrow.  Other than that, I'm

I'm Still Alive, Winning the Grand Prix, Too ........... 6/10/14

A Day of Many Variations

      Frustration and joy, drama, a spirited disagreement, standing my ground marked today. Exhaustion does not haunt me tonight, allowing me to tend tonight to innkeeper duties before this day changes its name. I moved a week ago and I am out of sorts.

       Plenty of items need

Emotional Fireworks........... 6/7/14

        From discombobulated to semi-discombobulated.  That's improvement.  I moved last Sunday.  Most of the house is in order.  Eighty-five percent. Not bad.

         This week I exercised boundaries,.  I had to. It is the armor needed when relating with those who don't.  I do not like drama.  It is never pleasant.  I am not a drama addict. One person tried foisting responsibility for his

Grateful for the Unmanageability of Life..................... 6/7/14

         I'm dictating tonight's post. One of the advantages of having a smartphone.  My dead laptop in being resuscitated by an angel.  The computer guy, Angelo, said a hundred bucks will make it better. He is giving me a loaner tomorrow.

        The past 4-5 days, I lived with a Tribble. You have to be a geek to know what I mean.  It is fascinating seeing this fur ball approach me.  Its a Himalayan cat, a junkie for

Out of the Hamster Wheel, Revisited. Also, I'm Out of Action .................. 6/5/14

   My computer is broke.  I am bumping this up, to provide something for today. I'm taking my laptop to the computer shop.  My fan isn't working.  I'm using it now, at its peril.  I miss you guys.  Please hold the inn open with your comments, please.

   Here's the post:

My Gratitudes: 

1. This evening, I slowed down.  Nurturing ourselves, is critical.  Doing nothing is a virtue, not a fault.  If not careful, redlining our lives destroys our serenity; living in a hamster wheel gets us nowhere but out of touch with ourselves.  When assaulted by a multitude of distractions, demanding our attention, our feelings lose out.

Calmness in the Eye of the Storm...... 6/3/14

  How are you?

Tuesday, I rested.  Was it needed.   I love serving others, my role as innkeeper, helping others, overcome being mangled by abuse, fear and self-loathing.

       I'm bumping up the following post.  Let me hear from you, I value your insights.  Here is the post, I made it current with my gratitudes for this day:

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      The past few months have been inspiring, a time of characterological growth.  It is a season of

Drama ................ 6/1/14

         I had a margarita tonight.  You'll find out why.  I don't care for drama, almost despising it.  If we want it, see a movie. That way, afterwards, we go home, leaving the theatrics at the moviehouse, not taking it with us.  Such was not the case this weekend.

        Many are drama junkies.  I am not.  We can easily get high on tension and conflict as an alcoholic does with a drink.  It is  our fix.  We are accustomed to it, our