Friday, March 20

Humor In the Midst of Pain.................... 3/20/15

"Like sunshine after the rain, and a lovely lonely flower
in a bleak environment, so is the joy we can know even
in the darkest and most painful of times. And so it is,
 when we know recovery and the love of a gentle, gracious 
               God"           The Innkeeper
    Last Sat-urday night it began.

    Pain stab-bed me.  I was robbed of the equanimity I usually enjoy.  It was stolen by physical torture.I could not sleep until 5:00 a.m. Sun-day.  After two hours of bles-sed sleep, nature called.  Then, a par-oxysm of another kind accosted me.

     It brought me to the floor of desperation. It lifted me to the height of something else.

      The wooden sides to my bed are high.  They are even with the mat-tress.  I swung my legs over the side.  I tried getting out of bed as I headed for the bathroom.  The frame created an outburst of cramps in my right leg.

     They turned my calf muscles into stone.  Agony seized them.  Three times I planted my feet on the bedroom floor.  Three times, convulsive leg spasms took over my calf muscles.  For more than twenty seconds,
 my leg con-tracted in agony.

      The pain threw me back in bed.  I writhed while moaning in the early hours of Sunday. What a way to start the week.

     An exposed nerve in a tooth, made me insane with pain.  More tired than when I've cycled 40 miles (64.37 km) in a day, I was.  Sleep was not my friend.  I was also enjoying the lingering remnants of my late cat Precious.  I was a Happy Meal for the fleas she left behind.

      I also needed to use the restroom and couldn't.    Wow.

     This is when something else kicked in.  Hu-mor. I laughed at the ridicu-lousness of my circumstances.  I was now men-tally a zombie because I was sleep deprived.  My jaw throb-bed.  My legs tingled from fleas tasting my juicy legs.

      There was no relief for my bladder.  My legs were in painful spasms. All this happen-ing at once. The story of a fellow who woke up discovering his water bed was leaking, came to mind. The man then
remembered he didn't have a waterbed.

       That was not going to be my lot, Sunday morning.

       If I saw an film character suffering from all the maladies I was struggling with, at one time, I would think it far fetched.  But it happened at 7:15 a.m.   Sunday morning.  And I laughed, even though in severe pain.
So, My Gratitudes: 
1.  For patience and the presence of mind that recovery offers.  Recovery gives me perspective, including humor, during rough times.  I don't let the green monsters of projection define my reality.  Because of recovery I do not believe I did something wrong and I was punished with the physical challenges endured this week.
2.  I had fabulous times visiting with the staff at my dentist's office and the office of the oral surgeon I saw today.  Four asked for my services.  Three I am seeing next week, appointments were booked. Didn't expect that.
3.  For the many who prayed for me as I went through the most difficult week, physically and emotionally I have known in years.
4.  For not allowing my mind to prevent me from experiencing life and being in touch with my feelings. This was especially important this week as I experienced death to comfort, depletion of my finances and a huge disruption to my work week, cancelling many appointments.
5.  I gave a presentation to colleagues yesterday on holding differences, maintaining multiple perspectives in a relationship.  Doing so, greatly improves our relationships with others. Several who attended approached me afterwards wanting me to coach them.
6.  My bike has been refurbished.  It better than I have ever had it----better than new.  I am thrilled!   I will cycle tomorrow.  Can't wait!

How About You? 
What are your three gratitudes for this weekend?  You heard mine.


Thumper said...

Wow! What a horrible night you had and you took it in stride! I am so happy that your tooth is feeling better. I was praying for you.

Recently, I had the opportunity to also practice patience in a difficult situation. At first, I honestly wasn't able to practice good recovery, but after a few minutes, I calmed myself and just laughed at the situation. I took a deep breath and thought about what I was grateful for. I am still doing that as I am suffering disappointment over 2 situations I have recently encountered. I would not have been able to do this 2 years ago. I am noticing that I am growing in my recovery and it feels wonderful.

Anonymous said...

Dear Innkeeper,

The way you told your story, of possibly, the worst night of your life, made me laugh so much, I thought I was reading something out of a Monty Python's script!! Very funny!

My Gratitude's are:

1. For laughter and people who can make me laugh.

2. For the Serenity Prayer. I said it many times at work last week, and it helped me keep my sanity!

3. Being invited to see a chick-flick with a friend.

4. My children...sometimes!

5. An amazing counselor.

6. A wonderful Al-anon family group meeting and great friends there.

7. A big bad monster...moving out!

8. Having a room...all to myself!

Jane G. Yorkshire

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