For the past six months, this is what I have suggested to clients. We don't want to hang on to mistreatment from
others. Not dealing with what troubles us causes resentment to build. So does our inauthenticity. The list of negative issues grow in a troubled, not authentic relationship. We may smile through tough times with that person. But our expression is insincere.
Our friendly front belies tension. The stress of unfinished business lingers within.
"Be angry. But in your anger do not sin, do not let the sun go down on your anger." Ephesians, 4:26.
it is. Often we are fearful for be-ing seen for who we are. What is the quality of a marriage, if it lacks authen-ticity? What type of respect do we gain if we are not ourselves? Our job may be jeopardized if we are honest. Is money more valuable than honesty?
Our society does not support relating:
We have been conditioned to measure our worth by how much people like us, how much we get done, or how much power and control we have. Susan Campbell, Getting Real, 73
and aware. They are the one with whom they connect at the soulish level.
Any other type of relationship is a meal of potato chips and soda. Compare this to the rich banquet of a friendship that offers authenticity. It has emotional safety, com-passion. A genuine relationship offers honesty and celebration of life. Control is not at the center of the relationship. Connecting is the focus.
Trusting ourselves in moments of uncertainty and ambiguity is required. Surfing difficulties in life and relationships is better than controlling them. We let others know what is alive within us---in that moment. This is especially true when we are buffeted by circumstances good or ill. If people cannot accept who we are---our opinions and feelings---we bless them. And send them on their way.
God's gift for us, they aren't.
We want to put value on what is rather than on what's comfort-able. Today, I imagined someone was controlling me. He was worried what I was going to say to someone. I resented his comment. I told him so.
It wasn't his job to censor me. At least it appeared he was. That was my judgment. Who did he think he was? I got angry, keeping my emotional bladder small. I released what bothered me.
The following principles help me:
Connecting with a person is exchanging all the truth, information, or energy available in the moment. It is a vital skill because it increases our capacity for dealing with situations that are paradoxical, ambig-uous, or confusing.... Relating begins from an attitude of not knowing and stays open to perceiving changes and new possibilities as they unfold.
In contrast, controlling is an attempt to maintain the illusion that you know how things should be and make things happen as you want them to.
After expressing my resentment, the fellow said, "I'll talk with you later." He hung up.Most people are so caught up in their self-image and in their image of how things should be that they are not able to be objective. They do not know them-selves well---even those who have done years of work on themselves. So when you think you're right of you know how things should be, your 'knowing' may be based on a limited, biased view of reality. It is most likely based on an agenda to stay comfort-able, safe, or in control. Getting, 79
Perhaps he'll reconsider his comment. When I see him next, I will not be distracted by my emotional bladder. It will not be over-flowing with the urine of unfinished business. Unexpressed resentment I do not carry. I express them as they surface.
Feelings were shared during the phone call. What I imagined, I revealed. The sun did not go down on my anger. Bitterness about the incident does not fill my soul. I dealt with what bothered me.
And because of that I have an Attitude of Joy and Gratitude.