tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5944766913433542786.post7494813112142432542..comments2023-05-15T19:42:05.251-07:00Comments on The Attitude of Gratitude Inn: Still Learning 8/28/11Pablohttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17963540433054608632noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5944766913433542786.post-12682309112372198862016-08-22T00:36:56.667-07:002016-08-22T00:36:56.667-07:00I've been wondering what keeps me from being p...I've been wondering what keeps me from being present and your post helped me realize that my default mode seems to freeze my heart so that I don't feel. This defense mechanism automatically turns on and tries to analyze my surroundings so that I don't feel my heart. My heart is afraid to be vulnerable ....it fears ridicule and rejection.LA G.noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5944766913433542786.post-44684429687307981932011-11-05T12:04:14.984-07:002011-11-05T12:04:14.984-07:00Thank you, Innkeeper, for sharing this episode in ...Thank you, Innkeeper, for sharing this episode in your life. I am grateful to you and your inner strength to post your experiences - they inspire and motivate me to do the same.<br /><br />The point that most resonates with me is the visceral reaction to an imagined (or past experienced), negative outcome. When I feel that push of fear inside, the kind that changes the taste in my mouth, that brings tremors to my normally calm and steady hands, I set out to write/outline the steps and info needed to accomplish the task that woke up the fear inside me. Once I initiate that action (which generally takes me a LONG time) and "think in ink", my mental clarity becomes stronger than the visceral fear and I can proceed with less trepidation. The fear doesn't go away, it generally withdraws, slowly until AFTER the event. Meanwhile, outwardly, I fake it til I make it...whew.<br /><br />I look forward to reading your other shares/musings. Thanks again! LowryAnonymousnoreply@blogger.com